Shine Your Darkness. Shine Your Light.

As with all of nature, life ebbs and flows.  We have periods of action and periods of rest. I have recently been blessed with a reprise from life- as-usual and have been taking full advantage of the opportunity for self-examination and transformation.  I know that this period has been given to me in order to take me to the next level, so rather than force something to happen from an old point of consciousness, I am allowing healing to take place, my consciousness to expand and the new to flow gracefully to me.  Uncomfortable? Yes.  Worth it? You better believe it!

During this time of introspection, I have been walking over some old territory, discovering old hurts, out-dated beliefs and clearing out my “mental closets” as Louise Hay would say.  It has been a wonderful experience and I invite you to do the same…even if it is for just a few minutes a day- what old belief can you acknowledge and then let go of? What secret shame , fear or guilt are you holding on to that may be holding you back from achieving what it is you truly desire to create in your life? Instead of pushing this further and further away, how can you embrace it? Can you say, ‘this is where I am.  This is my starting point.  This is the platform from which I launch my new beginning?’

I pulled a very fitting card from the Goddesses Knowledge Cards this morning: Selene.  According to the card, “Selene represents the fullness of life, incorporating all phases of light and darkness into her shining.”

Our past hurts and shame does not have to be hidden.  When we do that we only create life by reacting to this subconscious power.  Things may not work out and we don’t know why.  We become confused and frustrated by life.  Disheartened by the work in consciousness we are doing.  The more we drag these things out of the closet, acknowledge them and then use them as the platform to our new creations, the less power they have, and the more in alignment our lives are with our true desires, not these subconscious backseat drivers.

So, again, I invite you to dig deep.  Shine the Light of Awareness and Acknowledgment into those dark recesses of your mental closets, pull out everything inside and examine it.  Then heal it and let it go.  Call on your Angels for help in this process.  They are always with you.

♥ Megan

 

 

Embrace What Is

If you follow me on Facebook or listen to my Rise and Shine! radio show you probably know that for the past six weeks I have been struggling with and now healing from pneumonia.  It is a humbling process and I am grateful for the many ways the Universe conspires to inspire and teach me.

Every moment, every experience, every relationship is an opportunity for us to dive deeper into our awareness of our self and our world.  While this way of life is definitely more work than popping a pill or drowning in the noise of drama and victim mentality, it is, in my humble opinion far more enriching and thrilling.  Its like a puzzle constantly asking to be solved.

So what is the puzzle in pneumonia for me? What are its lessons?

For one it has alerted me in a new way to imbalance in my life, to my tendency to exert and push myself without allowing room for balancing activities of rest, compassion and allowing.  With pneumonia as my guardian I am learning if I push myself I will tire and I will tire fast and my activity needs to be modified.  It is a wonderful and instant teacher: If I want to continue to give big then I need to structure in receiving big.

So, I invite you to dive deeper into your own challenges.  Get curious. Explore their puzzles.  Ask them what lessons they are here to teach you and how you can implement these in your life.  What did you learn?

♥ Megan

…and the Universe supports me!

Like all of you I have an inner critic.  Her name is Nagem.  I think its a particularly clever moniker because its both what she does and my name spelled backwards.

Sometimes Nagem is louder and more critical than others. I have tried breathing exercises, Reiki, asking for angelic assistance, journalling, visualizing Love surrounding her, ignoring her, etc. And yet she still persists.

I’ll think of a desire and she jumps in with a million reasons why it won’t work.  It’s too expensive.  I don’t have the training.  I don’t have the time. And on and on and on.

But an interesting thing happened today.  I was thinking about a desire and as Nagem was preparing to step up on her soap box all of a sudden the phrase “…and the Universe supports me!” came out instead.  I expected a response from Nagem, but she was silent!

I said my desire again and added, “and the Universe supports me!” and it felt good! It felt exciting and hopeful and empowering.  It felt like the powerful end of a statement rather than a flimsy opening for a critical self-talk.  I encourage you to try and see how it works for you.

What desire has your Nagem been trouncing? And how does it feel when you add this simple clause to the end of your affirmation?  I look forward to hearing from you!

♥ Megan

Stepping Out of The Box and Into The Mystery

I get up at 4am. I stumble out of bed, get dressed and floss and brush my teeth. I start on the same tooth and go in the same order every morning. I’m pretty sure I put the same pant leg on first every day, too. I drink a green smoothie, do my radio show and walk to work the same way. I get home, work on a psychic hotline, see private clients, work on my businesses and go to yoga. And then I do it all over again. My life is highly structured, and I’m sure yours is too. I have expectations about the way my day is going to go and I leave little room for Mystery and Miracle, and when it happens I am often so startled that I don’t know how to respond and I deflect it with my “all-powerful” schedule.

Case in point: This morning I was guided to walk to work a different way, so I did. On the way to work I saw a billboard for a radio station and thought, “You know what, I’m going to allow new opportunities to take my message wider to flow to me. I know these opportunities are just going to find me and I will not need to effort to seek them out.” Just then I turn the corner and come face to face with a TV news camera and a well-dressed and coifed gentleman that I’m sure I would recognize from the morning news, if I watched it. He asked me if I had a moment to answer some questions on air. I looked around. Its 5:45am on a deserted street in Seattle and I ran smack dab into the opportunity I had been ruminating on only seconds before. So what do I do? I say, “No, I’m sorry. I’m late for work.”

About a block away I realized what I’d done. I fell prey to the “all-powerful” schedule. I was kicking myself for several more blocks and actually up until I started writing this. I blew it. I blew the very opportunity to shine my Light brighter in the world I was just thinking about! Then I started thinking about today’s Rise and Shine!, (my morning show on The Love More Project Radio Channel) which was all about stepping into the Mystery and asking better questions of all of our experiences. So following my own lead I asked myself, “What was the lesson in this?” “How can I use this experience to grow and learn?” And what came forward was a bit startling:

• Build time into my schedule to “flow.” Allow myself moments for meditation, for just being. Continuing to honor and act on my intuition when I’m guided to deviate from my norm, just like I did today when I took the different route to work. Allow myself opportunities within the structure to have flexibility and deviation.

• Ask myself, “What are my priorities?” “What is it that I want to accomplish at this moment in my life?” Then when opportunities such as the one that presented it to me today come up I can weigh them against my priorities. This better equips me to make choices based on where I want to go and what I want to create rather than where I am currently at.

• Take a breath. My response to the reporter was habitual and I didn’t stop to reflect. I wasn’t really that late for work; and even if I was…which was more important to me in terms of my priorities? Taking time to slow down and really be aware of what is being presented to me will help me make better, less habitual choices that are grounded in my priorities.

How can you apply this to your own life? When you reframe them in this light, what are your “missed opportunities” teaching you? What strategies come forward for you take more fully take advantage of the Mystery? Where can you schedule in “Flow time?” What are your priorities? I look forward to opening this dialogue with you!

Blessings & Namaste.

Megan

Self-CARE

We are bombarded daily with message of self-care.  This is especially true if we are on a path to experience more well-being in our daily life.  Advertising, workshops and even our oracle cards all taut the benefits of self-care.  Take time for yourself.  Treat Yourself.  Pamper Yourself.  You Deserve it.

I whole-heartedly agree with these tenets.  I am all about creating positive structures, habits and activities that support your well-being and create a balance between giving and receiving; taking and giving.  I take the time to exercise and nourish my body, mind and spirit on a daily basis.  In fact, from the outside it would appear that I live a life idealizing self-care, so why is it, I asked my guides, that I still harbor vestiges of low self-esteem, self-criticism and self-judgment? Why when I look in the mirror do I focus on that eyebrow out of place or the angle of my nose?  Why when I dream of something do I still catch that little voice inside of me whispering, “You can’t have that.”  Unfortunately it’s conditioning from our culture and our family and it’s something we all deal with.

I asked my guides about this recently and they shared with me that the key is to embrace the essence of self-care, which is the emotional component of caring.  As mentioned above, self-care has been cleverly indoctrinated as a way to market services and products, but in its essence it is about so much more.  If you engage in those activities, services and products without holding it as an experience and opportunity to truly express CARING for yourself, it will be moot.  It will come from an intellectual perspective.  You will do things because you know you should do them, but will you feel the weight of self-Love and compassion behind them?

So today I invite you to experience true self-care by focusing on the emotional components of your life.  Allow your emotions to be embraced and flow freely and enjoy the experience.

To dive deeper in this topic I invite you to listen to today’s episode of my morning radio show, Rise and Shine! on The Love More Project Radio Channel.  The episode includes a brief meditation designed to help you explore your emotions more in a safe space.

What will you do today to embrace self-love from an emotional perspective? How will you keep the emotional component of self-care present in your routine and throughout the day? 

Still Waters Run Deep

The past two weeks have been a time of deep introspection and contemplation for me.   As I have been reflecting on myself, my life and my experiences I have observed that I frequently chastise myself for having these periods, these seasons of deep thought, of little outward movement.  Yet these ebbs and flows of life are apparent all around us and especially as we transition from winter to spring, a time of hibernation to expression.  So why would I hold myself to such an unnatural standard? As part of nature and an energy being am I not entitled to wax and wane, to blossom and wilt, to move in waves, cresting then falling?

And yet here I am with all sorts of  ’shoulds’ arising.  And  they are trying to make me feel less then, telling stories of how others will think poorly of me, etc.  And yet, I realized the other day, that it is only me judging me.

Never has this been apparent than now, having recently moved to a new city far from home where I know no one.  And so how could anyone possibly be judging me for supposed inaction? For failing two write a blog post in two weeks? They don’t even know that I am here!  It is only me!

I am the only one who has placed that “rule” and “limitation”out  there for myself.  And I am the only one with the power to release myself from it.

How do we do this? How do we release ourselves from our self-imposed limitations?

Here is what I recommend:  Find an affirmation you enjoy, like “I allow good graciously into my life.” or “I am loved and supported.” I think its best to have one that is general and makes you feel good and light when you say it.  Then set a timer for 10-15 minutes and allow yourself the opportunity to just breathe and think and feel the affirmation.  You may need to say it out loud to quiet that little voice of discontent.

I have found that incorporating this simple exercise into my daily practice has helped me to enjoy and embrace the ebbs and flows and to see them as part of a my connectedness to the Nature as a whole.

What have you found that works? Please post your tips in the comments below.

♥ Megan

40 Days

No one is more surprised than me at where I spent my evening - church!  I know, go figure, right?!

After reading a Facebook post about Lent I received guidance to attend, and since today I committed to honoring my guidance by acting on it, I did… but not without great angst and bargaining!  I mean, I’m the one that my gay uncle made go into the church first at my cousin’s wedding because he was sure God would smote me – and if He didn’t then he knew he was safe! Hahaha.

I hadn’t been to mass in over 20 years and I cannot remember ever celebrating Lent.  I remember my Mom and her sisters always giving up “candy, cakes, pies and cookies” though, which is something they’d done since childhood.  So I guess Lent always seemed like something that sucked – I never saw what giving up those thing would help and if their God didn’t like me because I ate a cupcake then I didn’t like that God very much.

But I sucked it up and went, because, like I said, today was about honoring my guidance.  And I’m really glad I did. What I heard was exactly what I needed.

Over the last several weeks I have been reconciling a lot of patterns that I am not happy about perpetuating.  I don’t handle money well, I have a large debt, I don’t like how I allow people in my close relationships to treat me and I’m afraid to stand up to them and make them unhappy, I am insecure and have struggled with self-worth issues.  And I’m tired of it.  I’m tired of being the one defeating me, the one I am fighting.  So in a moment of clarity I realized I didn’t know how to get out.  I didn’t have the tools and I asked God for help.  I wanted to be a better steward of this life I have been given, of these gifts I have been given.  And like always, God has started to guide me.

I started downloading amazing information about soul level relationships, about connecting with our Divine Selves and about prosperity ….and I was guided to attend church this evening and once again, received what I needed.

During mass the priest talked about Lent being a 40 day period of reflection. It was a time to turn inward, to not worry about our neighbors, but to focus on ourself and our relationship with God.  That’s it, no giving up cake, no giving up cookies, or cupcakes, just a good ol’ heart-to-heart with you and Source for the next 40 days. According to the priest, it’s a time to take a good honest look at where we are going in our lives, what we are creating, what we want to create, how we are using our Free Will and how we are relating to God.

After mass, I went up to the priest and told him I had never celebrated Lent, but I was curious to learn more and I asked what my next step was.  He replied, “just do what I shared in mass today.”  I said, “So I’m just supposed to work with God for the next 40 days?” And he smiled and said, “Yes…well, you can come to church on Sunday if you’d like, but other than that, yes, that’s all you have to do.”

I can do that.  In fact that sounds like fun and something I’d been looking to do anyway, but now there is a bonus. I can harness the energy and intentions and prayers of all the other people in the world who, at the same time, are also working on their connection to Divinity.  In my heart I feel this is going to be a powerful time for many.

I invite you to join me for the next 40 days as I celebrate my connection with Source and improve my relationship with God.  I’ll be posting reminders, exercises and insights to my Facebook, Twitter and blog pages to help us all use this time of reflection to take us to the next level and improve our relationship with ALL THAT IS.

Peace be with you.

Namaste.

I love you.

♥ Megan